Alter protecting systems support group

So recently I've noticed that The Protector not only protects the system, but those close and valued by the system. I'm newly diagnosed with DID and come to realize that Im not the one whose protective of my loved ones it's one of the altars. While "Main Me" maintains friendships for the most part, it's the Protector who stands up for friends and loved ones. Today a friend was called out by a group of Karen's who only were talking about a situation that they themselves "knew"

Shopping for an Alter

So over the last few weeks, my fem alter has been coming through really strong and fronting more than usual. The host is typically unkempt and doesn't worry about labels and clothing needs to often and will quite literally wear something that is more holes than functional clothing. But since the fem alter has been fronting more, things like hair, makeup, clothing, and accessories have been sought after, to the point where others are beginning to notice it.

One day the Fem Alter forced a haircut and purchase

My Little is crying and hurt on behalf of another Little

I was called today to come over to a friend's house to talk with their granddaughter, because she was being bullied at school. Some kids were body shaming her and making her cry. So I was asked to come over and talk with her.

In true to form, it legit was kids just being mean, evil, bullies and spewing hatred. As she was telling me what was going on with her, and the things that she was being put through, I felt all the pain and anguish that my younger self went through with the bullying and teasing and name calling. 

I feel so horrible for this child because her home life isn't that great, and her school life isn't that great either. My own inner child could connect with her because my homelife

What music does your system listen to?

Today we find ourselves listening to classical violin while working on 5 different projects. We are doing content creation on all of our different platforms, while editing 2 different websites, and working on 3 different crafts, and stalking our Amazon Package in real time. There is other actual housework that needs to be done ATM, but this is where we find ourselves.

Do you find that depending on who is fronting that the choice of entertainment changes or does your system have a set "go to" that is enjoyed?

Pictures of yourself

When you see yourself in pictures can you recognize yourself or your Alters?

There's sometimes when I look at pictures that they seem a bit "off". Like today I took a selfie, and my face looks different than usual. All day today my secretarial and ADHD personas were fronting simultaneously yet I look at a selfie from Saturday and it's more "me" looking.

Anyone else experience this? 

Responses

DID Dreaming

I had a dream, and I think in that dream I met my personas, and it all took place in this little campy gay Market called Gay Mart in Palm Springs California.

There were eight different people in the dream that I was all interacting with and two people that I really couldn't see and the feeling that I got from each one of them was like I knew them.

We were all talking about just different things that were kind of relevant in one of them had a different personality, but it felt like my Altars. 

Have any of you ever had dreams where you think you've interacted with your Alters or met them?

Responces

Anger explosion

So I completely blew up yesterday and went from 0 - 100 in a manner of minutes. I was trying to appease everyone and just do some crafting like we typically enjoy doing, and all the Alters got pissy and the angry one fronted and threw all of the crafting stuff into a box and put it into the middle bedroom. So now when I try to do any crafting it's like I've completely forgotten how to. And as a system wide punishment we went into hibernation mode and ended up sleeping almost 12hrs.

I've got no clue wtf that was about.

Reddit Responses:

DID Vocal Stemming

So I belong to a DID Reddit group and some of my posts on this blog will be from that group including some of the responses without the usernames attached for their safety.

DID vocal stemming

Hello just trying to figure out if the vocal stemming is actually one of the Alters talking or if it's ADHD or some Venn Diagram thereof?

So there's times when out of nowhere the System will start talking and it's either in a different accent or it'll just be singing without any music on. They're had also been mentions of random noises coming out without any cognition. Like a random a quack, or that "farting" noise you do with your lips, etc.

Right now one of the Alters is speaking with an African American southern accent. It's not sure where that is coming from?

So any of you do this?

Responses:

Using I instead of We

 I've noticed that many people who talk about their experiences living with DID that many refer to themselves as "we" vs "I". For myself, it is still to weird and difficult to use "we" in place of "I", like the British Monarchs used to use. They would say things like "We are not amused" and quite often speak of themselves in plural. 

As I am still learning about my System, and how each part of it connects to another, I still find it weird and sometimes off putting, especially when I am discussing it with others.
I do have to say that most of the people, especially my mom, take it very well and do not look at me like I have three heads and sixteen eyes. And of course there are those that have questions, that I try to answer with my limited vocabulary and very rudimentary understanding of my own condition. 

While talking on the phone with my mother, I was explaining some of the Alters and how they present themselves, and how each one has its own comorbidity, and things that they like or dislike. One of the Alter's (Johnathan Meyers) is very attentive and dutiful and has an almost "Butler-esq" sense to him.  And that stationary is almost like pornography that he gets very excited at the idea of buying new pens, paper, office supplies, and other items.